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  1. I know how you feel! That first step out of the house or leaving your daughter in someone else care or interacting with people can be FULL of anxiety. Especially after being home for so long with the little ones. I was so nervous to leave my house and drive done the freeway and pass a truck after my son was born and we FINALLY got out of the house together. But when my day was do I was so proud of myself for overcoming my fears. Hopefully by this time you’ve started your new job and are settling — overcoming your fears!!! All the best girl!

  2. Anxiety can be tough, at times debilitating, but remind yourself that it is temporary. I suffer from anxiety also, I used to have panic attacks and I had to learn what was best for me to control them, to prevent them from coming on. I am currently going through a bit of a tough time and I feel the anxiety crouching back. This isn’t everyone’s thing but I’ve found meditation really helps me. I also spend more time doing things that relax me (painting, writing, skeching are my go-to’s). Find something that is sacred to you, somewhere you can escape and re-balance. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Tell yourself every day that you are strong and that you are worthy and that you will get through this. Lots of love to you and your family <3

    • I recently tried yoga but I haven’t made myself disciplined enough with it. I do enjoy just stretching and breathing with quiet music. My favorite is Native American music. My biggest struggle is doing something to calm myself before it gets out of control. I tend to hold myself back sometimes.

  3. This is a great post, thank you for sharing it with us. Although I was really scared to do it, one thing that has helped to relieve my anxiety is to let go of the pressure to be someone or something else. Tell yourself that you are enough. It can be emotional the first few times you do it but when you realize that you don’t have to be anyone other than yourself it takes a lot of pressure off. I also found that when I was able to accept myself as I was in my current life state, it made it easier for others to do so as well. It took some time but well worth it 🙂

    • That’s some really great advice. I have never really thought of doing that before. I think accepting myself in my current life state is the best way of saying that. I am constantly thinking on the past and what I could have been if I had done something different. I can be very hard on myself sometimes.

  4. Thanks for writing this! I needed to read this…

    Good luck to you on both overcoming the anxiety (although I swear it’s more of a manage sort of thing) and your sobriety. Don’t know you personally, but as a fellow mama (and lady) I’m super proud of you!

  5. I can really relate with your post in a few ways:

    – partner not understanding
    – pressure to get better faster
    – pressure to be someone you’re not
    – having to cover up what you don’t want others to know about you
    (this is why I started anonymous blogging and social accounts for recovery)

    I don’t have full blown Anxiety, but I’m a recovering Codependent, with other undiagnosed mental health issues like Depression, ADHD, sleep dysfunction, etc…

    Isolating oneself, be it by choice or circumstance, is what usually happens with recovering addicts (myself included). I’m glad to have come across your post on FB https://www.facebook.com/iFinanciallyShopping/posts/967626523343075. Would love to link up with you on Social… Hope you find ways to cope with your Anxiety, and please do not feel ashamed of it!

    • Thank you. That really means a lot to me that someone understands. I haven’t really spoke to others who have been in my situation and gotten through it. Most of the people I knew from that life are still doing it or have sadly left us. I feel like I am going through this alone sometimes and wonder a lot about why am I not happy when I am sober. This should be the happiest time of my life right now. I would love to connect with you on social because finding someone who I can relate to on some sort of ground is what I’ve been looking for. I am grateful you found this post…fate has a funny way of working and if we don’t talk about it so many others will walk this path feeling the way I do. I am tired of the stigma associated with addicts and recovering addicts.

  6. I’ve never suffered from anxiety but I have a niece that does. She is right now going through trying to stay off of drugs and even though she is in counseling, I can see that she still suffers with anxiety. I think her self-esteem really needs a lot of work because I think she too thinks others will judge her and I can see her withdraw from new people. I am hoping with family encouragement and support and her counseling that she will in time be the person I know she wants to be. I am proud of her.

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